Fatigue, in a Massive Way

I don’t know if the disease is progressing or if is just a side affect of the schedule I have been keeping.  I am tired.  Massively tired.

I’ve given up, temporarily-permanently, working on other’s computers.  I don’t have the energy to dedicate to affect a speedy resolution of one’s issues.  Just removing a hard drive take an enormous amount of effort.  Consider the total package of movement that doing this requires.  It’s not just a few screws and it is out.  You must position the computer, get tools, do the actual work, take the HD to another system. The list of activity goes on.

My personal systems, I generally don’t touch.  Everything I do is remote from whatever system I’m using to my servers.  The only things that move are my fingers.  Even moving fingers have been increasingly difficult.  Moving them is easy.  Getting them to do what they need to do can sometimes be a major challenge.

Typing this, is giving me considerable pain in my arms.  I need to rebuild my main workstation.  It is currently running Ubuntu.  However, voice recognition is severely lacking on Linux operating systems and Window’s OS has a much more refined speech recognition system.

I fear the rebuild.  I have a lot of automation in my desktop that I don’t know if I have the energy to reprogram into another OS style.  It must be done, but I don’t have the guts to address it.

I’m considering removing myself from some pro-bono activities I am the primary, and sole executer, for.  I just can’t sustain the interactions that I need to keep going.  I thoroughly enjoy doing it, but everything is repetitive.  If I could just get people to understand that I need this information without hunting it down, my issues would be reduced.

I don’t have it in me anymore. Time for someone else to take up the fight.

In Christ,

Jay C. Theriot